For most of my life, I believed that if I walked away from my daily time in the word feeling encouraged and fulfilled, that meant I was doing something right and that I was “close” with God. But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve wondered something: If that’s really the case, what happens when I don’t feel any emotion when I read my Bible? Does it mean that God doesn’t love me right now or that I’m doing something wrong? Worse still, does it mean I’m not a Christian?
Over the years, I have realized that I won’t always feel a strong emotional pull toward God when I spend time reading my Bible or praying. I used to think it was because I was in a dry spell, or I was simply in a tough season in my relationship with God. And while that may have sometimes been the case, I think most of the time I just didn’t understand what the purpose of the Bible truly is.