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12 August, 2016

I Will Not Look Back

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let-it-go

“Don’t over-think. Just let it go.”

I recently read those words on Instagram, and they instantly grabbed ahold of me. They caused me to examine my heart, and to ask myself these questions: Have I really let go of the past? Have I completely forgiven and chosen to love those who have persecuted me and sinned against me? Have I fully allowed the Lord to heal my heart? Are my scars reminding me of the One who rescued me? And, am I actually pressing onward to become more like Christ with each new sunrise?

Or am I lying still, dwelling on the past? Am I holding onto hurt? Am I looking back at the me I used to be—a me who only wanted what I wanted, and not what God wanted for me?

To me, letting go of past hurts is an everyday experience that requires continual action. I can’t forgive my enemies on Tuesday and be mad at them again for the very same sin on Wednesday.  I have to let it go. Press on. Fight for righteousness. I have to remember the Matthew 18 command to forgive “seven times seventy” times, and I have to remember that the Lord used my trials to make me more like his Son.

I remember once waking up from a dream where I was presented with a choice: I could either press on in my relationship with Christ, or I could turn my back and relapse into my old way of living hopelessly and without truly knowing my Savior.

But the dream had a beautiful ending. I ended up making the right choice, and then I proudly proclaimed,“This is an obedience to God.” And even though it was only a dream, it was a great encouragement to me. It gave me hope that I really can stand up in REAL life and make the same choice. And that choice must happen every single day that God breathes life into my lungs.

This reminds me of the story of Lot and his family in Genesis 19, and how God rescued them from being destroyed along with all of Sodom. Do you know the story? If you do, you probably remember that Lot and his family were given the command to not look back. But Lot’s wife looked back, and she was turned into a pillar of salt.

 “But Lot’s wife, behind him, looked back, and she became a pillar of salt.” {Genesis 19:26}

As I read that, I couldn’t help but be reminded of my own two choices. Today, I need to choose obedience to God. Just like Lot and his wife, God has rescued me. And I could turn around, look back and give up everything He has done for me. But I won’t, because I have been given two very important commandments to pursue:

“And [Jesus] said to him, ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’” {Matthew 22:37-39}

So, how does that apply here? It means that I WILL continue to love my neighbors and even forgive the ones who hurt me. And I WILL love the Lord with my whole heart, seeking after His will for my life, even if it means dying to myself each day. And my feelings, which often tell me otherwise, must not have a say here.

I will not turn around. I will not look back.

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9 Comments

  • Kimberly

    Lovely! Isn’t it so hard to just let go and allow God to work? I’m learning that a lot right now that I want to be in control even though He’s the one who knows best ❤️

    12 August, 2016 at 12:52 pm Reply
  • Chanel van Reenen

    I love those words. By not letting the little things get to you, there is so much to be happy about! Great post girl!

    12 August, 2016 at 10:19 pm Reply
  • Lindsay

    I loved this post! I try to hold on to that philosophy in every aspect of life – do things consciously and because you CHOOSE to, not because you feel like you have to!

    12 August, 2016 at 11:29 pm Reply
  • Heydy

    What a beautiful and honest post. Thank you for sharing with us !

    13 August, 2016 at 2:41 pm Reply
  • Erica @ Coming Up Roses

    FABULOUS post that really set my night off right. You’re absolutely right – God calls us to NOT LOOK BACK! We cannot turn back like Lot’s wife – we must look forward, eyes set on HIM.

    Coming Up Roses

    13 August, 2016 at 9:35 pm Reply
  • BreAnna

    God has been bringing this to my attention lately. My pastor spoke on patience being the opposite of anger. The message itself was not paying evil for evil and I thought of previous relationships and wondered if I made the right decision by walking away and not looking back. I think I did and I know that if I didn’t God will continue to get my attention and steer me in the right direction. I am so glad that I have the privilege to have my life situations affirmed through your blog posts. God definitely uses you and your words for his glory 🙂

    14 August, 2016 at 2:06 pm Reply
    • Jennifer Hope

      Wow, BreAnna! Thank you so much for sharing your heart. It is such an encouragement to know that my words are touching other people’s lives – to God be the glory!!! You made my day! God bless you! 🙂

      17 August, 2016 at 8:23 pm Reply
  • Amy

    Amen Jennifer! We can chose to hold onto the past, the struggles, the deception or choose to move forward in faith that God is mightier and more powerful than anything of this world. We are able. Praise God!

    28 August, 2016 at 1:19 am Reply
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